ok sometimes this site works better than gmail so instead of writing an email i'll still write in here but ig uess i'm not suposed to give specifics. acutally please just send me your emails and i'll add you to my makeshift list. this keyboard blows considering how fast i want to type.

these days go by incredibly slow. i feel like i've been here forever and i keep wanting to congratulate myself but its not even 2 days.
& not that it matters but its pretty much 90% goray log, i did the math becuase, well you know i would. its just funny because the thought that they'll be the minority who sticks out in a village is basically how i feel now. i'm fully aware no one can be racist here and i dont even think i neccessarily miss minorities, i just generally miss new jersey. no one has such a foul mouth as i do and i keep wanting to talk so much like my usual self but i forget that no one already knows how i am or how that works.
i thought i was holding up pretty good, as far as missing everyone at home but its only been 2 days!!! i guess its probably better to keep busy like they want because i get super sad reading emails from my familly. like super, super sad.
2 days vs. 2 years. unimaginable.
anyway we got lucky and it rained like crazy on our tin roof last night. it made me sleep really well and have dreams i acutally remember since for some reason, lately i dont remeber mine like usual.
its hard to tell if i'm loving this or hating this; i think its neither but the one EXTRA positive is that i swear to god this country is just like pakistan & nothing makes me happier. it smells like pakistan. it looks like pakistan. i feels like pakistan. and sometimes they throw in words like "inshallah" and i immediately feel a rush of releif.
i have NO idea how i'm going to do ramadhan here. and i kind of want to find a mosque but we're in like a freaking secluded summer camp...i've been really scared about going to ourh ost families but now i'm pretty pscyhed.....*everybody needs a bosom for a pillow*